The following takes place between 9pm 31/12/2013 and 1am 01/01/2014.
Events occur in Nigerian time.
- There is so much noise, the Choir is leading the congregation in series of "praise" and "worship" songs. Soon the Pastor will climb the altar. He will welcome everyone into the new year. Prayers will be said to ensure a smooth passage. The Pastor will hear god speak in his ear. Prophesies will be made. The first offering of the year will be collected. The congregation will disperse.- ......Somewhere in the middle of January, a fasting program will start. The aim? To make sure nothing stops you from achieving all you desire in the new year......
The truth?
You were here exactly 52 weeks ago, did the same things, said the same prayers, did the same dances, I even bet you can find the prayer requests you wrote if you search hard enough. But a lot has not gone according to the "expectations" of the "righteous" which supposedly cannot be cut off.
You have lost yet another bosom friend, not to death this time, but because either you grew too "holy" for your friend, or you had a dream in which that your friend's dog was pursuing you....a dream which according to your pastor implies that your friend has been the enemy against your destiny.....a verdict you wouldn't have gotten if you'd consulted the right person for your worry- a psychotherapist. And so your circle of human friends keeps dwindling.....but ofcourse you're now acquainted with a few more spiritual friends to make up for that...
Your Dad has refused to take the job he was offered at that Hotel, because the booze they sell is against his faith. Besides, the sinners who lodge there are heavily yoked with prostitutes. So he sits at home, either picking a quarrel with the neighbors, or waiting for a job from the lord.......either way, he wont bee able to pay your sister's fees, which means that she'll probably be the prostitute that will be sleeping with one of the guests at that Hotel a few days hence.
And I nearly forgot your new year resolutions.....another list of "principles" you wont be adhering to, and "targets" you wont be meeting....Because god is in control of your life now, and you need not worry what tomorrow will bring. So having relinquished all your responsibilities to "ghosts", it's quite no shock that you never get around to ticking off anyone of those targets from the lists....as done.
So all the visions and prophesies of the past years...about you becoming a millionaire, about that dream husband, or that pregnancy, or that Job, or car or house....they didn't come true because you somehow conveniently sinned or didn't have enough faith....or could it be that.....no...no....no....god is not man, so he cannot lie. Maybe it isn't god's time yet?
I don't blame you so much about all this, after all the Prophesies keep mentioning that "his" coming is now nearer than it was a forthnight ago....So yeah its very difficult to put 100% effort at anything, when you ain't sure if you'll finish it before the "end" comes.....
Oh my...the guilt you have to live in, and the fear, waking up to a silent house, and wondering if everyone has been raptured- But your Dad couldn't have been "raptured", didn't he slap your mum and call you an idiot before you fell asleep? So the guilt keeps mounting, how can you be sure you lived without "sin" today, a rapturable life? And you can't remember if you've confessed and asked god for forgiveness for yesterday's stare at that lady's sumptuous boobs....oh no....the thought is giving you an erection again and you're wondering if you probably need to cut off this dick of yours since its leading you into sin....or whether the problem is the eyes....or shouldn't the blame go to that heathen lady for exposing so much of her cleavage?
Confusion....
But our god is not the author of confusion....seriously?
I think I'm going to sit down....and re-evaluate these beliefs of mine......from the very beginning. I can't live another few years of my life this way.
-------THE MEDITATIONS OF A YOUNG RELIGIOUS NIGERIAN---------------
Yeah you do....
~~~Sydney Slim Iyke Scofield
4 comments:
Some of us will get there at 8 pm and will not go back home until it is 6 am. That is what and how we do. It is a humble part we have chosen to follow and I wish you and your cohorts respect that. If you have chosen another path that is good for you. But stop posting comments that disparage my belief. Stop posting comments that question why and how I serve my God. Post comments that will educate us on why you have choosing to follow the part that you are on. Post comments that will tell us why you do not believe in what we believe. In conclusion, I think you are on a personal mission of self discoveries and enlightenment, but please please do not make it our issue. it is yours to deal with .
@ Sydney Slim Iyke Scofield I am not saying you can post your bullshit on your wall, all I am saying is that you and your cohorts should stop ridiculing my beliefs. with this your last comment, It is obvious you have your problems with Christianity. Hey do not worry we are not going to force our views on you or ridicule your views. But you should concentrate more on why you have chosen to follow the part that you are on so we can examine your views and beliefs objectively.
If you have problem with Islam and other organised religions, that is your headache to deal with. You do not expect me and others who shares my belief to now start taking panadol for your problems. Tell us why and how you arrived at this your destination of your understanding so we can examine it.
Great CEE your experience is just a yesterday or an around the corner thing. I am writing a book on my life experiences. In one of the chapter I talked about my search for God. You can not equate men with God. Men will always fight to protect their selfish profit based interest. But your relationship with God is on a one on one basis. You do not need intermediaries. Most of those people you mentioned I referred to them in my book as hustlers in the vineyard of God. When I got to the states to further my education, I took an elective course called the religions of the world. We were exposed to all manners of religion and I was fascinated with Buddhism. After much studies and by divine revelations I came to understand that there is God, yes there is Jesus Christ and there is the holy Spirit. I will take my time to explain them to you and why you should not mistake your disappointment in men of god (MOG) to mean that there is no God.
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